<p>incoming…</p><p>2023.08.15—A lot of personal stuff has changed since my initial post called declaration.</p><p>Perhaps the most intriguing ideas from these “changes” are the following:</p><h2>An excerpt from the movie Birdman.</h2><p><img src="/static/uploads/b283d49c507484480c4a.png"></p><p>This means not overly concerning yourself with the ideas, feelings and impressions you leave on others. As long as you’re talking and behaving within the social norms, there’s no point in trying to control people’s perception of yourself, nor will you ever be able to do it.</p><h2>Confusing love and admiration</h2><p>This is also another thing I picked up from the movie Birdman. And the love I’m talking about here is not necessarily romantic love. It’s the feeling that causes someone to feel belonging to somewhere where he or she is <em>loved.</em></p><p>These two things are separate. Love is unconditional <em>(Well, not really but believing that and not dissecting the emotion “love” is the happiest option. We’re human after all. We feel things and knowing why you feel them isn’t always useful. We’re not truth seeking machines. In the end we are here for survival, reproduction and gathering power for the accomplishment of these. In this sense, seeking truth is merely a proxy for the longing for power. Realizing this, you can freely discard the seeking of truths that don’t give you power.)</em> and long-term and all-inclusive (i.e you love someone with the sum of their <em>everything</em>).</p><p>In comparison admiration is always conditional, it’s always in response to something that someone does. Is not all-inclusive (i.e. you might admire some of the things someone does and not some others.) And might be short-lived. (Your opinions on the value of someone’s actions might change depending on how you look at things.)</p><p>When you confuse the two, whenever someone doesn’t admire your work or your action, you think you’re not being loved. (Worst possible option to pick from many possibilities. Maybe your work was shit, maybe the person wasn’t interested, maybe the person was going through something else, maybe you didn’t present it as well as you could etc.) Hence love feels overly conditional for you, when in fact it isn’t. (Well, in fact it is, but it is as I explained above. It’s conditional still but over a MUCH greater summation of a person’s <em>everything,</em> rather than being conditional on singular outputs someone produces.)</p><h2>Perfectionism is a fallacy</h2><p>This is so true. And the following excerpt is the most brilliant piece I could find about this.</p><p><a href="https://youtu.be/1dSRzxg7p1E?t=36" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">https://youtu.be/1dSRzxg7p1E?t=36</a></p><p>To add to Willem,</p><p>Perfection often stems from the fear of judgement. Not quite as much as desiring perfection for the perfection’s sake. And as I pointed out above, other’s judgements are about others, not you. (Well within some limits that depend on the particular society you’re living in, but still..)</p><h2>Conclusion</h2><p>Upon internalizing these things a bit, I decided why not share my personal views and observations? I wanna share them, maybe some of you might wanna read them.</p><p>So you can expect to find in this website some philosophical and scientific takes, some tutorials, some projects and beyond.</p><p>See you next time, bye.</p>